I find myself thinking of you more than usual today
Of how blessed I was to have you for my mother.
The last days you were here.
If you were going to make it through the day,
You, looking so peaceful.
For the day to end while you were still here.
You knew we were there with you.
How much we still needed you and loved you.
To keep you here with us.
It was just a matter of hours, not days.
That you were not in pain.
Not to cry, in case you could hear us.
For strength to make it through.
You waited and then at the dawn
As the sun appeared and the sky turned blue….
You were gone.
Now, ten years later
It feels like just yesterday
That you left us
On that day
I regret not telling you enough
How much I loved and cherished you.
I regret the times I made up excuses
not to come see you in the hospital
for my own selfish reasons
Never knowing you would leave
my world so fast
And you would be part of my past.
You kept everything inside
And passed that onto me.
I can only hope you also passed
Your strength and faith to me.
I Love You, Mom
And still miss you every day.
You were my light
You loved me unconditionally
Sometimes I need that kind of love still
But I took it for granted
just like a pill
It kills me still
I am sorry
for not being there whenever
you called for me to see you
I’d take it all back if I could